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OMG...........ab mera number hai :(

I have simulated this moment many times in mind but forgot one thing every time.........reality will be a lot different. I was happy initially for being the bride-to-be, but as the time gap is reducing I wish this stage of life waited for some more time.......till I did all I wanted to do with my friends, till I have spent a heart-contented time with my parents,till I achieve my career goals, till I make sure what kind of person I want to spend my life with, till I am mentally prepared, or....................till I fall in love

All of a sudden life seems to be a race, every hurdle coming more quickly than the earlier one.

Here's how the whole thing started...........now that I am 24 and single and most importantly every one around me are getting married, the pressure started building for my marriage. I was all set to start the process of "swayamvar" or at least I assumed I am ready for it.

All my conversations with my parents and my sis are all about......."did u see the pic, liked it", "send me ur pics in that red suit and the saree one too....hmmmm and that one we took when u were home". GOD!!!! this is making me nervous.

For a moment I wish I was a guy so that I cud get married when I feel I am settled. Anyways, that is not the issue now. I am OK with marriage . BUT, with whom???? what after that??? wat will happen to my career aspirations??? Guess the time has come to find answers for all the questions before I proceed further.

Its time I come out of my fantasies. Never realised how old I have grown until now :). I suppose people sailing in the same boat find a caring shoulder in one another. Me and my roomie are one such company. The other day we were rewinding our memories and trust me college, school and all those silly things seem to be matter of yesterday. All those college crushes and the endless efforts made to talk to us, patient wait for a reply, long phone conversations and pending perfect proposal.....aaahhhhh!!!! wish i wasn't a phatuu, wish I gathered guts to talk to that one guy in college, that one guy at neighbourhood, that one guy at work, that one guy.........I had options but every time I failed to choose one :(

Now that its a matter of past......I have new dreams, new hopes, new outlook......this indicates that one of "nahi sudharne wale" category :D. I have decided to play along. "Take life as it comes" types u know ;)